The Darkness of Doubt
The more she tries to hide it
fight it
it haunts her
and taunts her
until she doesn’t want to be her
The one she has become
not anymore
The girl who doesn’t trust
loves on conditions
terms and provisions
Runs from a problem
and can’t admit it
The unknown is too much
for her to control
Her heart is a pendulum
back and forth
hot then cold
seeking solace
then stirring things up
squinting at dawn
after swinging though dusk
She craves to love wholeheartedly
one day
before her heart freezes over
To be familiar with feelings
free of restrictions
and the strings that hold her down
Free of childish insecurities
and the darkness of doubt