Afraid Not

by lynnkennison

Afraid

of just existing

not really living

Becoming absent

from who you really are

Backed into a corner

Held between the lines

Pretending too much

Playing too nice

 

Angry

with yourself

for putting up walls

for caging yourself in

and closing yourself off

not listening to your soul

when it screamed at the door

not speaking your mind

when it wanted to say more

 

Sad

that you’re getting get mad

but the walls were built by you

Nobody else

So what do you do?

Get mad at yourself

Don’t just move them around

Start breaking them down

Break! Smash! Pound! Collapse!

Work on getting out

 

Happy

Living your life

Someday

One day

you will start

Until then, let the smiles in

Does that mean you’re pretending?

Afraid not

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